Had a wonderful time up in New Plymouth and surrounds, full on days with consults and some wonderful evenings explaining Animal Communication what it is, how it works and hopefully some people will start learning more about it and putting it into practice!
Said farewell to my Bull Mastiff Dozer just before I went up north and now Leo is the only dog at home! He was a bit lonely to start with, but he's settling.
Cats are both great hunters, often bringing birds inside at 2 or 3am! Little buggers must be nest robbers!
Horses are good, Smokey had a great lesson with the wonderful Vicki Wilson and we both loved it, now to find energy after my working day is done and start getting him fit enough for the coming season of anything!
Already noticing the extra light in mornings and evenings, is so great to see! We have had such an incredibly mild winter, trees are already getting ready to bud down here, a whole orchard of cherry trees starting to bud! Hope we don't get too many more frosts or that'll stuff them up!
Am making a commitment to Smokey this season, poor boy really missed out on doing anything for the last couple of years, have had a lot of things to sort out in my own life and I finally feel like I'm actually getting ahead there which is cool. A lot of personal struggles and growth, a wee breakthru for me even just last night when I managed to NOT identify with the pain, where I could see it as separate and that the cause of the pain was really not real!!! I was able to hold the pain, stay aware of it and every time I did it simply wasn't there! Very strange.... when I relaxed my vigilance it was back and trying to convince I had every right to be hurt blah blah blah, begin to wallow in it, think about what I was doing, be aware of the pain and the unreality of it, that it was NOT me, and hey presto gone again. Quite enlightening and I finally feel like I'm getting somewhere in this journey, so now time to get on with living and give my gorgeous and oh so patient babies the attention they deserve!
Marcus is growing like a weed, has lost 2 of his baby teeth and has settled into school (finally!) really well, a smart kid, with a good heart but an arrogance I wonder how we're going to manage later! Still, he doesn't mind hugging his mum in public so all good for now!
So who has any plans for the rest of the year/season they want to share? I love to hear others enthusiasm and their plans, it's catchy, and I'll need the extra encouragement when I come home tired and need to get out there and ride!
Monday, August 5, 2013
Tuesday, May 21, 2013
As we Fall into Winter
The rain falls, and the frosts are starting, horses are in covers (so is Dozer the bull mastiff!) and it's dark EARLY!
I don't mind cold or even wet but I hate losing the light so early!
We farewelled my beautiful old Zak in March aged 15, he was very ready to go and only really held on because I had wanted to get him to his birthday!
It was the most peaceful passing I've attended, he was having trouble lying down towards the end and would spend a lot of time just turning around and round trying NOT to lie down and he was very sensitive to touch so he wasn't enjoying being cuddled. When it was time and I had booked the vet for the Monday (he gave me the nod on the Friday) but I had to bring it forward to Saturday and he was so grateful for that. So we went to the vets and got to the waiting area and he simply lay down on the floor and I sat beside him, he relaxed against me and he began letting go there and then.
We got into the consulting room and he did the same thing lay down against me and he simply didn't move. There was absolutely no change in him from before the needle went in to afterwards, it was so very peaceful, absolutely beautiful :)
We have a new kitten too, Marcus begged to have his very own kitten and a young girl in his class at school was trying to find a home for 2 kittens left that their cat had had and he went and chose one, he is all black and called Tom (altho he has been fixed now!) I'll put some pics up of my darling Zak and Tom tomorrow.
Am heading up to Wanganui and surrounding areas at Queens birthday weekend to do 4 or 5 days of consults and talks which I'm looking forward to! It'll be a nice break away from everything here and lovely to do some "hands on" work, can't wait!
I don't mind cold or even wet but I hate losing the light so early!
We farewelled my beautiful old Zak in March aged 15, he was very ready to go and only really held on because I had wanted to get him to his birthday!
It was the most peaceful passing I've attended, he was having trouble lying down towards the end and would spend a lot of time just turning around and round trying NOT to lie down and he was very sensitive to touch so he wasn't enjoying being cuddled. When it was time and I had booked the vet for the Monday (he gave me the nod on the Friday) but I had to bring it forward to Saturday and he was so grateful for that. So we went to the vets and got to the waiting area and he simply lay down on the floor and I sat beside him, he relaxed against me and he began letting go there and then.
We got into the consulting room and he did the same thing lay down against me and he simply didn't move. There was absolutely no change in him from before the needle went in to afterwards, it was so very peaceful, absolutely beautiful :)
We have a new kitten too, Marcus begged to have his very own kitten and a young girl in his class at school was trying to find a home for 2 kittens left that their cat had had and he went and chose one, he is all black and called Tom (altho he has been fixed now!) I'll put some pics up of my darling Zak and Tom tomorrow.
Am heading up to Wanganui and surrounding areas at Queens birthday weekend to do 4 or 5 days of consults and talks which I'm looking forward to! It'll be a nice break away from everything here and lovely to do some "hands on" work, can't wait!
Thursday, December 27, 2012
Happy Holidays!
Oh dear! One post in January and now it's the end of the year! And what a year its been, not one I care to repeat in a hurry, not one I look upon with much fondness, but it was survived, I feel like I have battle scars, war wounds and just plain worn out, but everything for a reason right? I have learnt a LOT, about myself, about life in general, about others, about what I can change and what I can't, I've been booted up the ass with hobnail boots into getting on with my own growth and learning and I've HAD to in order to get thru what 2012 has chucked at me, but Christmas has arrived and Operation Clean Slate is in action so perhaps 2012 will end well and I will not judge the whole year quite so harshly LOL.
Looks like I forgot to update the blogging world on our newest addition! Back in May while I was driving a night shift over grape harvest I found our latest "meant to be" baby. Driving down a nearly deserted rural road at 3am in a big ol' 8 wheeler truck with 10 ton of grapes and juice in the back I saw something on the white line in the middle of the road ahead of me. As I was only a matter of metres away from it I realised it was a tiny kitten sitting on the white line like a literal cats eye, little white chin and bib and toes reflecting the head lights. It was a narrow road and I couldn't slam on brakes or swerve anywhere and this tiny thing just sat there as I missed it by no more than an inch or two!
I braked and stopped and backed up as far as I thought I could and got out to see the damage... As I got out of the truck I heard this screaming from the side of the road (which was good, because if I'd run it over it wouldn't be screaming!) I aimed the torch into the grass at the side of the road and this tiny wee thing came running out into the beam of light, I reached out and it flattened itself on the road, was scooped up, all wet and skinny and shoved down the inside of my jacket where it stayed for the next 4 hours until we got home and I could feed it!
I was thinking of names as we were driving along and stopped long enough to ask if it had a preference and "Cassidy" was presented (as in Butch Cassidy) so Cassidy it was, which was great as it was a pretty unisex name and I had no idea if it was a boy or girl!
A week later we went to the vet for a sexing check, some worm tabs and a general check up (I haven't had a kitten around for many MANY years!) and the vet declared at that point he was about 5 weeks old and a boy :)
That tiny little thing certainly had some guardian angels with him that night, and he's a ferocious, precocious little man and a great hunter!
He LOVES Leo and Marcus, loves to attack anyone else, and rules the house easily LOL.
Of course he's grown a bit since then and isn't half as cute anymore LOL, but he is the bees knees and of course he knows it :)
In March we said farewell to Phoenix aka PeeWee, my big beautiful girl who deserved the love of being an only child and never got it :( She was 7 1/2...
And now Zak is getting old too, he will be 15 in March, but in the last 6 months has gotten old... We are down to 4 chooks now too, have had to let a few go this last year my poor gorgeous girls.
Smokey and I did another trail ride a couple of weeks back, only the 14km ride but we did it bareback!!! and came 6th!!! which was especially good since the other girl I was riding with and I took 2 wrong turns and I think we ended up doing about 20km and didn't have time to do any walking at the end to help lower the heart rate! It was a great ride and Smokey was a star the entire way and we had a ball AND my butt didn't even feel it the next day!
So outside of all the personal crap that was my year in a nutshell, and now Christmas has come and gone (Marcus was spoilt rotten with presents, kids makes it so much fun!) and we are only days away from a new year!
I hope everyone has had a wonderful Christmas, hope you enjoy your holidays if you are having any, hope you all remembered to wish your fur babies a Merry Christmas 'cause believe me, they would have been saying it to you, they all do... Birthdays and Christmas they'll be celebrating with you and passing you messages even if you can't hear them, so remember to share it back!
Wish me luck with Operation Clean Slate and from me and mine to you and yours, Merry Christmas my friends xxx
Looks like I forgot to update the blogging world on our newest addition! Back in May while I was driving a night shift over grape harvest I found our latest "meant to be" baby. Driving down a nearly deserted rural road at 3am in a big ol' 8 wheeler truck with 10 ton of grapes and juice in the back I saw something on the white line in the middle of the road ahead of me. As I was only a matter of metres away from it I realised it was a tiny kitten sitting on the white line like a literal cats eye, little white chin and bib and toes reflecting the head lights. It was a narrow road and I couldn't slam on brakes or swerve anywhere and this tiny thing just sat there as I missed it by no more than an inch or two!
I braked and stopped and backed up as far as I thought I could and got out to see the damage... As I got out of the truck I heard this screaming from the side of the road (which was good, because if I'd run it over it wouldn't be screaming!) I aimed the torch into the grass at the side of the road and this tiny wee thing came running out into the beam of light, I reached out and it flattened itself on the road, was scooped up, all wet and skinny and shoved down the inside of my jacket where it stayed for the next 4 hours until we got home and I could feed it!
I was thinking of names as we were driving along and stopped long enough to ask if it had a preference and "Cassidy" was presented (as in Butch Cassidy) so Cassidy it was, which was great as it was a pretty unisex name and I had no idea if it was a boy or girl!
A week later we went to the vet for a sexing check, some worm tabs and a general check up (I haven't had a kitten around for many MANY years!) and the vet declared at that point he was about 5 weeks old and a boy :)
That tiny little thing certainly had some guardian angels with him that night, and he's a ferocious, precocious little man and a great hunter!
He LOVES Leo and Marcus, loves to attack anyone else, and rules the house easily LOL.
Of course he's grown a bit since then and isn't half as cute anymore LOL, but he is the bees knees and of course he knows it :)
In March we said farewell to Phoenix aka PeeWee, my big beautiful girl who deserved the love of being an only child and never got it :( She was 7 1/2...
And now Zak is getting old too, he will be 15 in March, but in the last 6 months has gotten old... We are down to 4 chooks now too, have had to let a few go this last year my poor gorgeous girls.
Smokey and I did another trail ride a couple of weeks back, only the 14km ride but we did it bareback!!! and came 6th!!! which was especially good since the other girl I was riding with and I took 2 wrong turns and I think we ended up doing about 20km and didn't have time to do any walking at the end to help lower the heart rate! It was a great ride and Smokey was a star the entire way and we had a ball AND my butt didn't even feel it the next day!
So outside of all the personal crap that was my year in a nutshell, and now Christmas has come and gone (Marcus was spoilt rotten with presents, kids makes it so much fun!) and we are only days away from a new year!
I hope everyone has had a wonderful Christmas, hope you enjoy your holidays if you are having any, hope you all remembered to wish your fur babies a Merry Christmas 'cause believe me, they would have been saying it to you, they all do... Birthdays and Christmas they'll be celebrating with you and passing you messages even if you can't hear them, so remember to share it back!
Wish me luck with Operation Clean Slate and from me and mine to you and yours, Merry Christmas my friends xxx
Saturday, January 14, 2012
The End of the World is Nigh!!!!
and I nearly missed it! At the rate time is flying by the end will have come and gone unnoticed LOL.
Can't believe I haven't posted since September (I blame FaceBook! You post things there and think you've told the world LOL)
So... I quit night shift, tried 4 different types of sleeping pills before the last lot actually worked at resetting the poor old body's clock and sleep is all A-OK again (bliss!)
We had a late start to Spring and we've had a wet summer so far, poor old world is trying to turn itself over and upsetting the weather patterns somewhat! Got some hay cut and dragged off the paddock 2 days before Christmas which we spent in Christchurch with my dear friend/sister, Lisa which was lovely. Home so Bruce could get to work over in Nelson clearing some slips after the deluge they had over there, and Marcus was with Pete so I got a weeks holiday to myself, got quite used to sleeping in!!! Alas Marcus was back before that habit became ingrained LOL.
Took both Mac and Smokey to our dressage comp in December, the 1st and last one for them for the year! Both were very good boys for not having been ridden diddly squat :o) Have since been gearing them up with a few more rides for a bit of fitness work so I can get them out and about to some Trail Rides, next one is next weekend! So their feet have just been trimmed, the grass is being rationed even more (fat little piglets they are!) and I'm aiming to take Mac, but we'll see on the day (if it's blowing like a you know what, it'll be Smokey going LOL.
Roger has gone to the neighbours place to be a paddock mate for her horse which is lovely, he doesn't have to be stripped grazed there, and gets more attention there than he did here so he's as happy as a pig in mud :o)
Took Mac up the road for a short road ride last weekend, traffic really doesn't impress the stress freak, but it was dead quiet on Sunday so we went out for a change, he decided the little wooden bridge on the road to the school had a troll living under it, but eventually he knew I was just going to keep nagging till he did it so he gave in. Took us 20 mins to get the the end of our one way trip and 7 mins to get home LOL. He decided his beautiful big power trot was called for to get home and that was it! Smokey was next and it was his 1st ever proper road ride (outside of the 300 metres to the end of our dead end road) and he was a complete star :o) Didn't set a foot wrong. Stopped at the bridge, had a sniff at the wood and then tip toed across it. Had horses screaming at him from both sides of the road and he behaved beautifully. Always very proud of my wee Kai.
So that's a quick catch up! Still working driving trucks, still doing communication, still busy busy.
Oh! And reading The Law of Attraction by Abraham-Hicks, very good book, very good at the explanations of how we attract what we think about and how sometimes when we try so hard to attract something it doesn't work... Love the way they talk about the "Inner being" being your GPS by way of emotions.... if you are feeling a negative emotion, you are negatively attracting and out of synch with the Source, if you are feeling a positive emotion you are positively attracting and in synch, pay attention to the feelings you feel!
Can't believe I haven't posted since September (I blame FaceBook! You post things there and think you've told the world LOL)
So... I quit night shift, tried 4 different types of sleeping pills before the last lot actually worked at resetting the poor old body's clock and sleep is all A-OK again (bliss!)
We had a late start to Spring and we've had a wet summer so far, poor old world is trying to turn itself over and upsetting the weather patterns somewhat! Got some hay cut and dragged off the paddock 2 days before Christmas which we spent in Christchurch with my dear friend/sister, Lisa which was lovely. Home so Bruce could get to work over in Nelson clearing some slips after the deluge they had over there, and Marcus was with Pete so I got a weeks holiday to myself, got quite used to sleeping in!!! Alas Marcus was back before that habit became ingrained LOL.
Took both Mac and Smokey to our dressage comp in December, the 1st and last one for them for the year! Both were very good boys for not having been ridden diddly squat :o) Have since been gearing them up with a few more rides for a bit of fitness work so I can get them out and about to some Trail Rides, next one is next weekend! So their feet have just been trimmed, the grass is being rationed even more (fat little piglets they are!) and I'm aiming to take Mac, but we'll see on the day (if it's blowing like a you know what, it'll be Smokey going LOL.
Roger has gone to the neighbours place to be a paddock mate for her horse which is lovely, he doesn't have to be stripped grazed there, and gets more attention there than he did here so he's as happy as a pig in mud :o)
Took Mac up the road for a short road ride last weekend, traffic really doesn't impress the stress freak, but it was dead quiet on Sunday so we went out for a change, he decided the little wooden bridge on the road to the school had a troll living under it, but eventually he knew I was just going to keep nagging till he did it so he gave in. Took us 20 mins to get the the end of our one way trip and 7 mins to get home LOL. He decided his beautiful big power trot was called for to get home and that was it! Smokey was next and it was his 1st ever proper road ride (outside of the 300 metres to the end of our dead end road) and he was a complete star :o) Didn't set a foot wrong. Stopped at the bridge, had a sniff at the wood and then tip toed across it. Had horses screaming at him from both sides of the road and he behaved beautifully. Always very proud of my wee Kai.
So that's a quick catch up! Still working driving trucks, still doing communication, still busy busy.
Oh! And reading The Law of Attraction by Abraham-Hicks, very good book, very good at the explanations of how we attract what we think about and how sometimes when we try so hard to attract something it doesn't work... Love the way they talk about the "Inner being" being your GPS by way of emotions.... if you are feeling a negative emotion, you are negatively attracting and out of synch with the Source, if you are feeling a positive emotion you are positively attracting and in synch, pay attention to the feelings you feel!
Sunday, September 11, 2011
Spring already!
Wow this year is flying by! Sad to say my nightshift musings are coming to an end (altho they've been sadly lacking of late anyway!) Unfortunately since the beginning of the year my sleeping patterns altered from a sleep anywhere and for a looooooong time to just can't sleep! This has been steadily getting worse and altho I thought I was coping "OK" with being tired thru the week I obviously wasn't, the stress built up internally till my heart started playing up merry hell and I started having mini meltdowns and of course in the midst of all this I'm telling myself "I can't sleep!!!!" so it's been compounding and a vicious circle. Bruce put his foot down the other day after I confessed at the dinner table just exactly how bad the stress was and said the night shifts had to go.... only a compounding issue, not the cause but it's bad enough I actually agreed with him, so this is my last night shift! I also chucked in collecting eggs at the free range farm about 3-4 weeks ago now (can't believe I did that for 2 yrs!) so my weekends will be my own again!!! And it shouldn't take me till Friday each week to try to repay at least part of the sleep debt so I'll have more energy for the communication work that is picking back up again :o)
Auckland was quiet at the expo for me, but it was lovely as usual to catch up with friends and family and just talk to like minded people at the expo. Had a couple of enquiries at the expo about doing workshops, so I might look at putting one or two together, if anyone is interested in details or attendance etc feel free to email me or connect here or on FaceBook etc.
And with the weekends free and energy to spare I'll be back on those horses again! Smokey and Mac have only been ridden once or twice since about February and I must confess Mac was a perfect angel to get on after that length of time off! A pleasant surprise, so we may actually get back to some animal updates too!
Of course I haven't stopped musing some things (and have beaten myself up just lately for having done all this musing to still let this lack of sleep thing affect me like it has, I should know better!) and along the lines of the last post about how can God be the Song if we are not the Singer... I just had a thought a day or two ago, that it is thru us and our beliefs and fears that God the Infinite can actually experience what it is to be 'finite' or have an end... even if it's not true, if an atheist, for example, believes that death is the complete end and nothing exists afterwards, then it is thru that belief, those thoughts, the possible fears, and the visualisation of the nothing afterwards that 'God' can get an inkling of what is may be to cease to be... Just a pondering :o)
So that's my quick catch up, enjoy your spring for those of you on this side of the world, I guess the leaves are turning and looking fantastic for those of you who are approaching hibernation time too :o)
Enjoy the world of colours and change!
Auckland was quiet at the expo for me, but it was lovely as usual to catch up with friends and family and just talk to like minded people at the expo. Had a couple of enquiries at the expo about doing workshops, so I might look at putting one or two together, if anyone is interested in details or attendance etc feel free to email me or connect here or on FaceBook etc.
And with the weekends free and energy to spare I'll be back on those horses again! Smokey and Mac have only been ridden once or twice since about February and I must confess Mac was a perfect angel to get on after that length of time off! A pleasant surprise, so we may actually get back to some animal updates too!
Of course I haven't stopped musing some things (and have beaten myself up just lately for having done all this musing to still let this lack of sleep thing affect me like it has, I should know better!) and along the lines of the last post about how can God be the Song if we are not the Singer... I just had a thought a day or two ago, that it is thru us and our beliefs and fears that God the Infinite can actually experience what it is to be 'finite' or have an end... even if it's not true, if an atheist, for example, believes that death is the complete end and nothing exists afterwards, then it is thru that belief, those thoughts, the possible fears, and the visualisation of the nothing afterwards that 'God' can get an inkling of what is may be to cease to be... Just a pondering :o)
So that's my quick catch up, enjoy your spring for those of you on this side of the world, I guess the leaves are turning and looking fantastic for those of you who are approaching hibernation time too :o)
Enjoy the world of colours and change!
Wednesday, August 17, 2011
Pet Expo in Auckland Next Weekend!
Wow! I can't believe it's been a year already! Time to head up to Auckland for the Pet Expo again!
Will be manning a stand with the lovely Jeanne Northwood from Energyworks and will be stealing some more of her great lotions and potions!
I'll have some discounted vouchers for consultations and some Himalayan Crystal Salt there and will be available for consults or one on one communication workshops on the Monday and Tuesday (29th and 30th August) so feel free to make contact if you need me for anything, otherwise it'll be fantastic to meet anyone who feels so inclined at the Expo on the weekend. Was pleasantly surprised after attending the last one, so make sure you come along and check out all the different clubs, animals, and products on offer!
Will be manning a stand with the lovely Jeanne Northwood from Energyworks and will be stealing some more of her great lotions and potions!
I'll have some discounted vouchers for consultations and some Himalayan Crystal Salt there and will be available for consults or one on one communication workshops on the Monday and Tuesday (29th and 30th August) so feel free to make contact if you need me for anything, otherwise it'll be fantastic to meet anyone who feels so inclined at the Expo on the weekend. Was pleasantly surprised after attending the last one, so make sure you come along and check out all the different clubs, animals, and products on offer!
Monday, July 11, 2011
If you are not the singer, how can God be the song?
driving to work tonight I was, as I seem to be doing a lot lately, thinking about how precious this physical body is... I was singing away at the top of my lungs (probably very badly!) to October Project and thinking that once we are dead and have left this form I would no longer be able to sing, or even "hear" a song. I thought I would have the memory of that song and singing it, but another thought overrode that, I would BE the song, but I would no longer be the singer. That gave rise to something I've mentioned before and think often enough, that without us being aware of the Creator, without us being SELF aware, then in reality God as "God" doesn't exist. Creation becomes aware of itself thru US being aware of it. It is by us observing God in a flower, a bird, a loved one or anything else you can see it in, that God becomes aware of itself as God. So if we are not the singer, how can God be the song? The song cannot exist in thought alone, it would be just a thought, it requires sound, music, a singer before it is a 'song', thus God requires us to be aware before it is the Creator... Quite a responsibility really, and yet quite an ego boosting one too LOL, after all, animals cannot reflect God to itself because they are not 'self aware' the same way we are. Many of them see themselves as part of the One, but they see ONLY that which gives rise to no sense of awareness of 'more'. We because of our ego have a sense of separateness that enables us to see ourselves as different to other things, therefore easier to see the Creator in other things, which is what, as I see it, gives us the specific type of awareness that God needs in order to see itself.
hmmmmm tired tonight (shattered last night!) and I get the feeling if I try to explain it any clearer I'm going to make it murkier, so I shall leave that train of thought there.
Last night actually, I did an email to the Beloved about my views on Life, excuse the last paragraph, it was after all a personal email to Bruce, but it is how I see Life, and I might as well share since you're subjected to everything else I think anyway LOL.
Life
The journey that is Life. From birth to death, and from being dead to being alive. A journey of self discovery, an exploration, unmapped, unknown with the potential therefore to be nothing less than exciting.
Life. Physical, short and precious. Full. Of whatever you choose. Actions, reactions, consequences of actions. Dreams, fears, disappointments, contentment, boredom or excitement. But always full.
A journey walked with others, sometimes many, sometimes few, but never in isolation.
Life. A physical manifestion drawing us out of the Whole, leaving us with no memory of the One Life, but the possibility of rediscovering that anew with every passing moment of time.
Life, where time passes and we watch form decay. Life, where we are subject to the Laws of Science. Life, with all our perceived constraints within it.
The playground of Life, the school of 'hard knocks', where we learn by physical expression the Laws of Cause and Effect, the Laws of Cumulative Effect, where we live under and subject to Laws.
Life, blink and you may miss it, cry too long and you'll never see it clearly, stare it in the eye and ride it like a rollercoaster, it may scream around corners terrifying you at the thought of a derailment but after all it's up and downs you know it's going to end and you can get off the ride.
Life, able to be shared, uniquely able to be seen from anothers perspective, while walking your own path.
I love my life, the warmth of sun on my skin, the feel of rain wetting and chilling me, the touch of a loved one, the responsibilities of loving and being loved. The stresses and the challenges, the joys and the laughter. The salty taste of tears and the comfort of arms around me. I love the bite of tiredness, and the blissful sleep that reminds me of a small death. I love the sound of thunder, observing the living, the movement, the breathing, dynamic even when still. I love the feeling of Nature, from the hardest rock, to the roughest tree, to the fluidity of water, to the suppleness of skin. I love the solidity of the manufactured, not a 'living' cell in it, but it's vibrancy is unsurpassed.
I love my life and all the lives it has touched. Adults and children, animal and human, all from the same Source, brushing against me and bringing learning and expansion, bringing challenges and frustration, bringing love and Love. Some barely meeting before disappearing into their own uncharted territory, others sharing a more parallel journey of discovery, delighting in sharing observations and experiences, learning with and from each other. Never in isolation.
I love the journey of my life and I am ever grateful for the company found along the way. I am blessed to be walking beside you in your journey, to be close enough to hold hands, to be seeing so many things through your eyes, of experiencing more than just my own life. Aware enough, alive enough, to see the One when I see You. Aware enough, dying enough, to look with wonder at our forms and treasure them, to experience them, to burn into the fabric of the Whole the memory of the look, the sound, the touch of these bodies and all the carnal experiences they allow. Precious, fleeting, never to be repeated, no other body will feel your skin like I do, no other eyes will see you like I do, no other heart will love you quite like I do, this experience, this expansion of the One, is something unique to you and I, and I thank you, I thank Life, I thank the Whole for that, and I hop on this rollercoaster and I hold on tight, and although sometimes I may shut my eyes, I know that I'm safe and having the ride of my Life, and I Love it!
hmmmmm tired tonight (shattered last night!) and I get the feeling if I try to explain it any clearer I'm going to make it murkier, so I shall leave that train of thought there.
Last night actually, I did an email to the Beloved about my views on Life, excuse the last paragraph, it was after all a personal email to Bruce, but it is how I see Life, and I might as well share since you're subjected to everything else I think anyway LOL.
Life
The journey that is Life. From birth to death, and from being dead to being alive. A journey of self discovery, an exploration, unmapped, unknown with the potential therefore to be nothing less than exciting.
Life. Physical, short and precious. Full. Of whatever you choose. Actions, reactions, consequences of actions. Dreams, fears, disappointments, contentment, boredom or excitement. But always full.
A journey walked with others, sometimes many, sometimes few, but never in isolation.
Life. A physical manifestion drawing us out of the Whole, leaving us with no memory of the One Life, but the possibility of rediscovering that anew with every passing moment of time.
Life, where time passes and we watch form decay. Life, where we are subject to the Laws of Science. Life, with all our perceived constraints within it.
The playground of Life, the school of 'hard knocks', where we learn by physical expression the Laws of Cause and Effect, the Laws of Cumulative Effect, where we live under and subject to Laws.
Life, blink and you may miss it, cry too long and you'll never see it clearly, stare it in the eye and ride it like a rollercoaster, it may scream around corners terrifying you at the thought of a derailment but after all it's up and downs you know it's going to end and you can get off the ride.
Life, able to be shared, uniquely able to be seen from anothers perspective, while walking your own path.
I love my life, the warmth of sun on my skin, the feel of rain wetting and chilling me, the touch of a loved one, the responsibilities of loving and being loved. The stresses and the challenges, the joys and the laughter. The salty taste of tears and the comfort of arms around me. I love the bite of tiredness, and the blissful sleep that reminds me of a small death. I love the sound of thunder, observing the living, the movement, the breathing, dynamic even when still. I love the feeling of Nature, from the hardest rock, to the roughest tree, to the fluidity of water, to the suppleness of skin. I love the solidity of the manufactured, not a 'living' cell in it, but it's vibrancy is unsurpassed.
I love my life and all the lives it has touched. Adults and children, animal and human, all from the same Source, brushing against me and bringing learning and expansion, bringing challenges and frustration, bringing love and Love. Some barely meeting before disappearing into their own uncharted territory, others sharing a more parallel journey of discovery, delighting in sharing observations and experiences, learning with and from each other. Never in isolation.
I love the journey of my life and I am ever grateful for the company found along the way. I am blessed to be walking beside you in your journey, to be close enough to hold hands, to be seeing so many things through your eyes, of experiencing more than just my own life. Aware enough, alive enough, to see the One when I see You. Aware enough, dying enough, to look with wonder at our forms and treasure them, to experience them, to burn into the fabric of the Whole the memory of the look, the sound, the touch of these bodies and all the carnal experiences they allow. Precious, fleeting, never to be repeated, no other body will feel your skin like I do, no other eyes will see you like I do, no other heart will love you quite like I do, this experience, this expansion of the One, is something unique to you and I, and I thank you, I thank Life, I thank the Whole for that, and I hop on this rollercoaster and I hold on tight, and although sometimes I may shut my eyes, I know that I'm safe and having the ride of my Life, and I Love it!
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